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Unwelcome Remark
November 7th, 2008 by dimapakali
Don’t you just hate it when people you barely know come up to you and say, “Ang taba mo ngayon.” If I was given a hundred pesos every time someone say that to me, I will be a millionaire by now. I swear. My friends will probably argue that my pledges mean nothing and I have a tendency to exaggerate, but this, unfortunately, is not the case this time.
I’ve gotten a lot of flak from well-meaning friends and relatives about my weight, and now is the perfect time for me to face the fact that I really do need to go on a diet. Just a few minutes ago somebody (insert expletive here) ask me if I were on pills because I’ve been putting on a lot of weight. That was just hilarious, and it left me temporarily dumbfounded. Thankfully somebody chastised the person who made the remark and said, “Bakit naman magpipills iyan eh wala namang asawa yan!”
Good point. I don’t mean to be on pills because I have pretty much accepted my fate as an unattractive and unlovable (that’s what my ex-husband said) single mother. Accepting this was not easy dough though. I turned to everything from binge eating to running dvd marathons. I can say that I am definitely in a better place now (i.e., I can now tell you that the guy I married is such an irresponsible loser without shedding a tear), but it did came at a cost — my (insert another expletive here) weight.
I am so fat that I could barely fit into my old jeans, and that is just depressing because it means that I have to buy new clothes which I can ill afford. I am so fat that I could hardly look in the mirror anymore because it just makes me doubt myself more. And a shattered self-esteem is hard to handle, especially after what I have just been through. Sigh.
That pills remark was my wake up call. I vow to start cutting down on sweets and soft drinks. I promise to eliminate rice on my diet. And I will do it next Monday…
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