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- A Survey to start the year!
- Survey Says
- Unwelcome Remark
- Walang Magawa
- A Cataclysmic Assignment
- Birthday Musings
- Disconnected
- Jamimi
- Letters
- Surreal Conversation with a 21st Century Sage
Survey Says
November 11th, 2008 by dimapakali
I love answering surveys, for it delights my narcissistic and solipsistic spirit and exercises my brain. Besides surveys are one way of giving my fans (geez! I guess the rock star persona of my ex sorta rubbed off on me…) a glimpse of my complex persona… So here goes:
If someone were to spell your name wrong, how would they spell it?
> I haven’t met anyone who misspelled my name. I just get the usual “Myra Cough syrup” comment which is just lame. I get it. My parents don’t have imagination, you don’t have to rub it in my face…
Is your phone close to you?
> My phone has ceased being an extension of my life. I’m actually surprised that I still own one. I only use it to play sudoku before I go to sleep.
What’s bothering you right now?
> Nothing really. There are times, however, that I feel weak and miss the days when I was still with he-who-must-not-be-named, but I immediately squash these flights of fancy by remembering the bad times.
Bet you’re missing someone now?
> I’m not supposed to and I don’t want to but i do. I am weak like a firefly drawn to the light which will eventually kill it.
What do you want to be when you’re older?
> I want to be independent. I want to lead my life the way that I want to, not the way that others expect me to. Oh, I also want to be filthy rich (which leave me a couple of options like re-marrying rich or religiously playing lotto).
If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it ?
> Are you kidding me? A hundred dollars is less than five thousand pesos? Well, I guess I will finally buy myself those killer Steve Madden hills.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
> I was dreaming about a better place and time.
Are you listening to music right now?
> I rarely listen to music. I’d rather read to calm my nerves. (Geek alert!)
Do you get along with girls?
> It depends on the girl. I don’t get along with gossips, backfighters, and pretenders, which means that I rarely meet girls I like.
Do you like surprises?
> I love surprises, especially those which involve tearing gift wrappers.
What are you doing tomorrow?
> The same freaking thing I do every week day — go to school and teach.
Do you like your name?
> not really…
Do you crack your knuckles?
> nah… I have other means of releasing my aggression.
What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
> Going back to school.
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
> yeah, I never let the day pass without kissing Jamie. These are usually the highlights of my day.
Bonfire or fireplace?
> hmmm, either just as long as I get to be close to someone who is in love with me deeply.
Do you ever write notes on your hand?
> nah.
Where did you sleep last night?
> the living room. I was up late watching dvd.
When was the last time you were in a swimming pool?
> last summer?
Have you ever fallen backwards on a chair?
> nah. ?
Whats on your mind right now?
> What I will be doing tonight at home. I just want to be busy. I seriously need something, anything that will keep me occupied.
Have you ever gone Christmas caroling?
> nah. I can’t carry a tune. I guess this is the reason why I am attracted to musicians.
Do you think you’re old?
> yeah… I am… The stress and heart aches are taking a toll on my looks.
What are you looking forward to in the next month?
> We are transferring to our new house, so I guess that will mean a new life.
When was the last time you talked to number 1 on your featured friends?
> I can’t remember.
Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren’t?
> I’m an expert when it comes to that.
Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
> There really is no reason to hate me.
Where’s the last place you went?
> I can’t remember…
Do you smile often?
> of course
If you were being chased by an alligator, what would you do?
> run?
Would you ever change for a boy/girl?
> only for the better… but it will be tough…
Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?
> hmmm, I want more people in my life actually, so that I would feel less empty.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
> not really.
Are you in a good mood?
> so so.
Is there anything in your past that you’d like to try again?
> I would love to just let all my rage go through drinking sessions with my best buddies.
Do you have a best friend?
> yes, but they are all abroad.
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Unwelcome Remark
November 7th, 2008 by dimapakali
Don’t you just hate it when people you barely know come up to you and say, “Ang taba mo ngayon.” If I was given a hundred pesos every time someone say that to me, I will be a millionaire by now. I swear. My friends will probably argue that my pledges mean nothing and I have a tendency to exaggerate, but this, unfortunately, is not the case this time.
I’ve gotten a lot of flak from well-meaning friends and relatives about my weight, and now is the perfect time for me to face the fact that I really do need to go on a diet. Just a few minutes ago somebody (insert expletive here) ask me if I were on pills because I’ve been putting on a lot of weight. That was just hilarious, and it left me temporarily dumbfounded. Thankfully somebody chastised the person who made the remark and said, “Bakit naman magpipills iyan eh wala namang asawa yan!”
Good point. I don’t mean to be on pills because I have pretty much accepted my fate as an unattractive and unlovable (that’s what my ex-husband said) single mother. Accepting this was not easy dough though. I turned to everything from binge eating to running dvd marathons. I can say that I am definitely in a better place now (i.e., I can now tell you that the guy I married is such an irresponsible loser without shedding a tear), but it did came at a cost — my (insert another expletive here) weight.
I am so fat that I could barely fit into my old jeans, and that is just depressing because it means that I have to buy new clothes which I can ill afford. I am so fat that I could hardly look in the mirror anymore because it just makes me doubt myself more. And a shattered self-esteem is hard to handle, especially after what I have just been through. Sigh.
That pills remark was my wake up call. I vow to start cutting down on sweets and soft drinks. I promise to eliminate rice on my diet. And I will do it next Monday…
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Walang Magawa
November 5th, 2008 by dimapakali
Proof of my extreme boredom is that lately I’ve been reading the entertainment section of some local tabloids. It is amusing to read about the inanities of the local entertainment scene. It is exciting to live vicariously through these celebrities. Marian Rivera is probably walking in cloud nine right now. After all, she just caused the break up of Dingdong and Karylle who have been couples longer than I have been married to the negative wrong one. Alfie Lorenzo, on the other hand, is probably walking with an ax hanging over his head. After all, his prized talent, Judy Ann Santos, is about to get married and is starting to assert her independence. The nerve of the ingrate to do things without consulting him! He, after all, was the only man person who was able to see a star amidst all the fats and tackiness of the younger star.
The one bit of gossip that affected me deeply concerns Candy Pangilinan. Yeah, the irritating bit actress who does not know the meaning of the word “subtle”. She was asked about her annulment, and she said that the guy she married might as well be a ghost. He supposedly just disappeared off the phase of the earth. Hmmm, that just sounds strangely familiar. Hey, Candy, what’s the name of the guy you married? Are you sure we didn’t marry the same loser user person?
Oh, before you judge me “bakya”, let me just make it clear that I don’t just follow the local entertainment scene. I’ve gone international (Like I said, I have way too much time in my hand). I cringe every time I see photos of Zac and his Pinay girlfriend who may be related to GMA for making a lapse in judgment and for having her pictures taken while naked. (I apologize if I gave you mental pictures of GMA naked.)
For the record, I am not “bakya”. I am just drowning in ennui… hehehe
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